December 11, 2011| Journal Entry #25

Dear Journal,
It's been a long time since I last posted, but we have a WHOLE lot to catch up on. I am already 14, and I missed my Facebook birthday party. And one more little thing: I started falling in love with this guy named Keith Bridges. One night, he popped up in my dream and now he's all I ever think about. That dream made me look at him in a different perspective. I've liked him since October. And that one magical thing happened: He asked me out. On November 15th. I thought we were gonna last forever because neither of us disliked each other in any way. But people got too pushy and meddled in our relationship business. Some of my friends liked him and got jealous and never spoke to me. So the relationship had to end. On November 29th. To be clear, this was the longest relationship that I've had when I went out with someone I liked. So, of course, I cried. But for some reason, I didn't cry for a long time like I usually would. I cried for five minutes. And only because he called me in the middle of the night to break up with me. I thought we were never gonna speak again, but I was wrong. We're talking a little more than we have in those two weeks that we've been going out. And now I like someone else: his best friend, Daniel. I'm a pathetic excuse for a girl. I went out with my crush, he dumped me, and I moved on to his best friend. I'm low. Keith knows that I like Daniel and so does Daniel. But Keith doesn't seem bothered by it. Which kinda makes me wonder a bit about him. I know that I'm lying to myself. I don't like Daniel as much as I like Keith. No, scratch that. I LOVE him. I still feel genuinely sad about the break up, even though it was like 3 weeks ago. I can't believe I let something that I love so much go. Nothing seems real to me anymore. I mean, on Friday, me and Keith were laughing and having a good time in school. I couldn't put it through my mind that he's not mine anymore. If he sees this, I should say, now, any girl would be lucky to have him. I just wish I were that lucky.
            
                                                                                                  -Emmi<3